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thinspo survey lolol.

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 01:46:31 GMT

TheTheologiansCafe's Thinspo Survey

just for giggles.

Age: 15
Height: 5'4"
Weight: 108
BMI: 18.5 (oh noes)
Dress Size: 3 (triple oh noes)
Highest Weight: 113
Lowest Weight: 96
Goal Weight: 96
Favorite Diet Food: yogurt
Favorite Binge Food: um everything else ? :D
Favorite Exercise: abs
Thinspo: jolin tsai
Where Do You Slip Up? what
When Did It Start? few years ago
Does Anyone Know? yep
Do You Want Help? don't need it anymore ! :D
How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day? i don't count anymore ! :D (but my lowest when counted was 251 rofl)
What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror? chubbytubby
Are You In A Relationship? nope
Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends? thinnish ?
Are You Depressed? nope
Ever Tried To Commit Suicide? thought of it
Ever Been To A Psychologist? plz.

I AM -
[/] anorexic
[/] ednos
[] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[] drinking something
[ahh i wish] Under 100lbs
[/] starving yourself
[] participating in a fast

PEOPLE -
[x] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[x] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[/] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic

I WISH -
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[/] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[] I could stop being ana/mia

I LOVE -
[/] feeling hungry
[/] seeing a difference when fasting
[] shaking
[] being weak
[xxx] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

x = still apply, / = used to

Friday, September 12, 2008

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 06:09:58 GMT

um. no. .. yeah.

i like him.

hiatus ? for like. whatever.
no one reads this anyway.

<3

them.

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 03:51:39 GMT

i know i'll still always have some feelings for him.

i don't know if i'm beginning to like him.

i'm in the process of learning more about Him.

<3

sigh

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 01:04:21 GMT

sadly,

i've been losing interest for many things.

i don't even like myself anymore.

</3

Currently Listening: Simple, Starving to be Safe

so my fish

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 15:34:35 GMT

they got their first car before i did ! :P
thanks to brian(: but the hood doesn't go up and down like ithink it's supposed to :T
it just stays up. oh well. it's still super cute :D

and ! on thursday after volleyball practice before i went to help at freshman orientation, pretty much the whole JV team besides a few people went to melissa d's house and we all BLEACHED our hair (zomg ha) and then we temporarily dyed it purple. but since it wasn't done professionally there's still bits of bleached/undyed hair mixed in x) haha. fun stuff.

except i didn't really tell my mom..

so like we went to jewel the .. next? day and then my hair was still up from practice. and she's like. why is your hair purple ?! and i didn't tell her about the bleaching so i was like. yeah.. it's for volleyball but it'll wash out later (as in a few weeks but she thought i meant a day. ahahah oh silly mom)

and then she's like. o___0; ookay ..

soo yeah. and then we were putting away the groceries in the trunk when she starts swatting at my hair. HAHAHA. she's like. "what's that brown stuff ?!?!" (bleached.)

okay. yeah ok that wasn't really all that funny or interesting but life's been really boring lately.
no more brian, don't hang out as much with judy, super busy lately, school's starting..

ugh

<3 ?

soooo

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 17:20:19 GMT

he's not waiting anymore
and he told me not to either

too hard for him right now to do so much at once when he doesn't have everything under his control.

blaaaaaah. i don't really know how to take it.
and i know it'll take me a LOOOONG time to get over him (which may not even be 100% over him by then) who knows. rar.
rawrawrawrawrawrawr. RAWR. i miss him.
and i still love him.
but if i love him so much i should spend my time being glad he's doing what's best for him.

and in the future.. who knows ? maybe i'll still want to be his :)

so i will make him love me again >:O
i have that effect on people. bwahaahahahhahaa

lol.
alklksdjflskdjf i'm so bipolar ^OOOO^
*cry*

<3

it's over.

Sat, 16 Aug 2008 15:50:34 GMT

because he's not ready
so he can figure himself out
and get closer to God
and focus on other things
without distractions, like being in a relationship.

best friends in love, taking a break, waiting for when he's ready in the future, even if it takes a few years.
and it's worth the wait.

and so long as i have the piggy and the ring on my phone, then he'll know i'm still in love with him.

but is it selfish of me to be hurting right now ?

</3

phone charms &kfest

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 03:22:43 GMT

brian &i got matching phone charms at kfest [koreanfestival] :)
mine is white, like my phone
his is black, like his phone

i was sooo happy too, because i've wanted to go every year since like 4th grade (many korean friends) hah and my mom never let me. but this year i was just like. mom i'm going to kfest with like, brian, or something. k? k.
and i saw a buuunch of people i haven't seen in FOREVER/awhile ~
like jinah, linda, jin, dashka, lisa, linh, faith, julie, ann, kathy, christine, jae, mujo, jenny

i doubt i'm going back tomorrow, though i wouldn't mind it if i did.

anyway. i am satisfied. hehe. and i have kimchi and kalbi and rice and fried squid, fried veggies, fried dumplings, fried shrimp in my tummy. oh. and green tea bubble tea. and strawberry ice cream.

life is good.

<3

video blog ?!

Thu, 07 Aug 2008 01:14:05 GMT

i suppose now all of you know WHY i don't do this..
1. i stall
2. you can't hear me over the static
3. even if #2 wasn't an issue, you probably still couldn't understand me because i can't speak clearly enough
4. i'm boring

but hay okay here it goes:

first and last video blog ever.
EVER !
(unless i try it again some other time when the sound is working better, when my life is more interesting, and when i can speak english)

<3

edit --
i take that LAST part back. i'll do it again later. maybe i'll even use captions or speak in multiple languages !

a lot.

Tue, 29 Jul 2008 12:43:04 GMT

i don't know why i'm still on this thing. ahah. hah. ha. ok.
so yesterday i went with brian and his little brother jon to young hair salon (no, it can't be googled [sadly], not like you're in the area to go there anyway) so they could get their hair cut by judy's mom. >3< squehehe he looks so cute :#
then we went to the pool with erik and choi and grace and her cousins nicole and <insert complicated korean name here :X (something with a eu i suppose)>
then i wanted ice cream ! so after buying some terrible food from the snack thing at the pool we migrated to village creamery.
and then brian was being all embarrassing dripping mint chip milkshake stuff all over x) bahahah loser. and uhhhhhh then he walked me home
and stuff happened
so then we went to the park !
and i got two mosquito bites on the way ):

~~~~~~~~~~

i also went to the doctor's yesterday morning to get my physical exam thing for school
and then i got a shot for menonnonongeinigniggitis. however that's spelled.
and soooh i had to wear this bandaid thing and i asked her if i could still go to the pool
and she said ofcourse ! buuuut my mom didn't really like that so then i had to put on this ghetto laytexfree waterproof bandaid. thing. type whatever.
so .. ihave the ugliest tanline ever. (see figure a)

yuck. which brings me to point #TWO ! the most important part ! =) =)
if you've ever heard about the chinese MACCYS camp, which you probably haven't,
(ahem .. preceding link for more info even though it'll probably bore you :D [oh and the site is clearly outdated but you get the main idea -- it's a camp for children teaching chinese culture/recreation])
you'd know that they have to have t shirts every year representing what year of the chinese zodiac it is.
now, i designed last year's too. . but it was like. meh. five second sketch.
but voila ! :D i'm actually kind of proud of myself this year, especially because my mom made me redo the design like 10293842094502394802394 times (a lot).

anyway. it looks a lot better than it did last year, even though last year was a pig and this year a rat. (pleasant, right ? -o-)
but haaaaaay, they came :3 ! in banana, kiwi, red, and that's it perhaps maybe dunno ? anyway. i wanted banana (as you can see in figure a)

*drumroll plz*

click for better view.

and i know i know, it's nothing special. but the only part of it that was typed was 2008 :D
and shuddup. i know it sucks. but i like the crayons.

ohkay. so that's a big update.
even though no one is gonna read this :)

maybe i'll read this when i'm 80 and admire myself.
or not. ):

<3